another diary - abah

Assalamualaikum.

I'm not sure since when I've abandoned this blog. And yet struggling to clean up all the dirt I left here. And now I am pretty not sure since when I started to blog like writing diaries. I didn't meant to but time are running so fast till I am not capable of providing some good stuff to be shared with. As before I have more time to read and making research so that I can provide a good stuff to be read on.

I just called my abah. And oh tears did fall down my face. Why? cz i miss them. Okay, to be exact, he was stung by bees a few days ago. My mom did told me earlier but she said nothing to worry about. And just yesterday I was informed that he was actually stung not 2 times but 12 times. Again, 12 times. - I knew it by reading my sister's blog.

I really hate it cz its now Sunday night and I can do nothing. I can't skip my class on Monday and our Science Fair will be held this Wednesday so I still got few stuff that need to be settled.

What my sister shared remind me of the past. He told my sister that he was really worried if he passed away cz of the bee stung and she and our brother will not be able to see him for the last time, since they both are in overseas.

He did told me almost the same thing when I was in Form 4, the reason why he gave me an option to transfer school to our hometown. -

"abah takut kalau abah mati, ma dengan abg lon tak sempat jumpa abah, sebab ma jauh, dan mestilah abg lon yang akan ambil ma balik nanti..". 

At that time, he told me how much he regretted for sending me to a boarding school far away from home since the day he was diagnosed with heart disease, afraid of me not able to see him before he passed away. He said he thought that he was strong enough to visit me atleast once a month but that was before he knew the fact that he got heart problem.

When I was in Form 1, he was hospitalized cz of the problem and I wasn't informed by anyone with his excuse of not making me worry. He got sick several times in the same year and not telling me for the same reason. And now he was stung by bees and not telling me how bad it was. 

I know that most stings cause only minor medical problems but still some stings may cause serious medical problems and even death. It is so scary until I can't hold my tears. Plus my elder sister didn't answer my call. How come she'd fall asleep this early, especially when I need her the most.

Please pray for my abah, hoping that he will be fully recover soon. 

p/s : he did told me that he was in pain for only the first 6 hours, but 12 stung is still too much.